silence breaks on the shores of nothing new

November 25, 2008

There really isn’t anything new right now. I’m continuing to date a barely legal virgin, I still work at a job I hate, and things are cruising on WoW. The only thing is, I was crushed the other day by Love. I sent a mass text to let people know my phone was finally back on and she returned one that said “Who is this?”.

I never forget people that were important to me, really important to me. I loved this woman, and while I’m known to fall fast and land hard on my face it doesn’t change that I felt that for her. And she said she felt it, too. I responded with “Someone who doesn’t matter in the end” which was parried by “If it wasn’t important, I wouldn’t have asked”. My killing blow, I feel, was “If it was that important, you wouldn’t have had to.”

It hurt bad. For about five minutes. I’m fine now, just a bit irritated. And she may read this, and realisation will dawn and who knows what then, but I think I’m just done. That made me feel downright terrible for a few moments. It’s not fun to find out you’re forgettable.

After that, LA called to check on me, though. Maybe I’m not that forgettable after all. I explained to the GF about the important women in my life, The Ex and LA mostly, and how it’s no threat to a relationship at all. Just people I care about a lot, and will answer the phone at 3AM for. She says it’s fine, but somehow I doubt it is completely. I’d rather get it out in the open than feel the need to hide it.

And now I know Love is not one of those people. Such is life.



  1. Although it might bother her in the back of her mind, it’s good you told her that you would answer the phone at 3 a.m. for them. That way, when it does happen she can’t rightfully get too upset.

    I’m sad you wouldn’t answer the phone for me at 3 a.m.

  2. But, you don’t have my number… I don’t think. That’d be creepy as hell.

  3. I hate it when people are shit.

    I don’t have your number either – but that’s ok because it would cost me a lot to call you. And when it’s 3 a.m. over here it’s 9 p.m. there – 9 a.m. here when it’s 3 a.m. there. Also, we’re not that close. Though, if you tried to call me at 3 a.m. I would answer because I know you’re not a frivolous man and would be calling with something you felt was important.

    I don’t have your number but I’d settle for your address, please?? I’ll keep asking until you send it to me.

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