and now i’m crying

August 26, 2008

Because I went searching for a photo and browsed through all the photos I have of my son when he was a baby. And I think it just hit me hard that I missed so much over the last few years. I can barely remember the days when he was just starting to walk and talk. And I will continue to miss some things. And one day I won’t remember now too well. I want to remember everything, because once it’s gone it’s gone. He will never be that chubby little baby sitting in front of the christmas tree again. And I will miss Christmas mornings when he wakes up and runs to the tree. And so much more.

But I’m going to smoke and calm down. I’ve had my mini breakdown/panic attack for the day. The rest will be cake.


One comment

  1. hey, keep your head up. at the end of it all, life is a beautiful thing. everything will be fine 🙂

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